We were asked to make an impossible decision yesterday.

Just know that if you want to do foster care that you will feel heartbreak that you did not know you could physically handle.

Over and over.

If you really do what is best for these kids and love them like your own, you will get hurt.

My hope and prayer at the end of the day is the decisions we make bring more good than bad.

Is it still worth it?

Yes.

Sometimes I have to remind myself of that though.

We are a foster home.

I can’t share faces.

In fact the kids I am sharing are ones that have moved on.

It is hard to share only part of my family on here.

I tend to post less while we have a placement.

It just feels wrong to be sharing what we are doing without ever sharing the other person or persons that were there also.

It feels like the photos I share have holes in them.

So here are two pictures without holes, my boys with kids that have taken a piece of me with them.

It is hard, beautiful, and heartbreaking but so worth it.