I am now 30.

I really do not have a problem with that. Most of my friends are in their thirties.

What I did not count on was my feelings of panic that I did not end my last day in my twenties in a big way.

I was suddenly sad last night that I was not out hiking in the ozarks or watching the sunset over a lake.

I wanted to take off for the nearest lake but dinner was on the stove.

I settled for a self portrait and a walk in our backyard in between the moments dinner needed my attention.

I also made myself a pumpkin cheesecake and ate half of it…

Eating half of a cheesecake will always make you feel like you are celebrating.